[... it takes him a second to respond to that. It's not untrue to say that he does his best not to hurt people...but it's still strange to have someone acknowledge that.
(Not a bad strange, though, he finds.)]
Thanks, Charles.
[The rest is a bit easier, though he privately smiles a bit at the enthusiasm.] Like I said...I'm pretty lucky. Still, I don't want to think too far ahead. First step is figuring out how to get home, right? For those who want one, at least.
[ for what, he thinks — but he's learned not to ask that, and so it stays untyped. instead, he focuses on the rest of it all... which, hm, isn't in the end any easier. ]
... yeah. i guess it is
just, not easy, all that, is it? i know we can't really stay here but
this place throws a curveball after another at us, the locals hate us, this isn't really.... proper life, not the way it is out there in the real world
but as long as junpei's here, i think i don't really care about any of that
i keep thinking about something. the theory that we're like, copies of ourselves, yeah? that there's nowhere for us to even go from here. that it's this or nothing.
and all i can think of is this other version of me
well, all of them, out there, in all the timelines that exist
just... never knowing about any of this. and that just
[ fucking breaks his heart, actually, but he can't manage to say that. ]
I'm not sure I buy that. That there's nowhere for us to go.
[Ever the optimist. It makes sense; Izanami chose him to represent hope for a reason. He refuses to give in to the notion of inevitability -- it goes against everything he's ever fought for.
...
but Charles says a few things that hit hard, too.]
You're right though. It hurts...thinking about missing out on those bonds. The things we've learned and done here.
I wonder if they think about that, too. Those other versions of us. People we never met, and things like that.
[Of course he thinks first of Kotone and Minato, two sides to the same story. He thinks of Naoto, and the friend --Marie?-- she mentioned that he doesn't remember. Another version of him that formed such a strong bond with her...a version of him that never solved the murders... It's a lot to think about.]
[ he's not sure he wants to believe it — but root had sounded so certain, and what with the machine, she would know, wouldn't she? charles believes her, absolutely, and it means believing her in this, too, even when it hurts him to do so. ]
Would make sense, wouldn't it? Or maybe they're smarter than us, and focus on the here and now. On making the most of every moment, cause there's no magical redo button, is there? Just what we've got, right now.
[That had been the hardest part of Saki-senpai's death, even though he'd only known her for a few days. The fact that they figured out why it happened, but they couldn't do anything about it...not for her.
In life, there are no redos. That particular pill is the most bitter one to swallow.]
But just because we're thinking about things like that...it doesn't mean we can't make the most of things, too. Isn't that what we're doing?
[Taking the chances while they can. It's why he's come to the relationships he has -- because he's realized that the missed chances were never worth saving himself from a little pain.]
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oh, you are? mate, that's brills! that means you got a chance of finding him, don't you?
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(Not a bad strange, though, he finds.)]
Thanks, Charles.
[The rest is a bit easier, though he privately smiles a bit at the enthusiasm.] Like I said...I'm pretty lucky. Still, I don't want to think too far ahead. First step is figuring out how to get home, right? For those who want one, at least.
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... yeah. i guess it is
just, not easy, all that, is it? i know we can't really stay here but
[ but. ]
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... Would you want to? Stay here, I mean.
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this place throws a curveball after another at us, the locals hate us, this isn't really.... proper life, not the way it is out there in the real world
but as long as junpei's here, i think i don't really care about any of that
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There's
... There are things here that are hard to get at home, or impossible. It's not stupid, wanting to hold onto them.
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i keep thinking about something. the theory that we're like, copies of ourselves, yeah? that there's nowhere for us to even go from here. that it's this or nothing.
and all i can think of is this other version of me
well, all of them, out there, in all the timelines that exist
just... never knowing about any of this. and that just
[ fucking breaks his heart, actually, but he can't manage to say that. ]
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[Ever the optimist. It makes sense; Izanami chose him to represent hope for a reason. He refuses to give in to the notion of inevitability -- it goes against everything he's ever fought for.
...
but Charles says a few things that hit hard, too.]
You're right though. It hurts...thinking about missing out on those bonds. The things we've learned and done here.
I wonder if they think about that, too. Those other versions of us. People we never met, and things like that.
[Of course he thinks first of Kotone and Minato, two sides to the same story. He thinks of Naoto, and the friend --Marie?-- she mentioned that he doesn't remember. Another version of him that formed such a strong bond with her...a version of him that never solved the murders... It's a lot to think about.]
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Would make sense, wouldn't it? Or maybe they're smarter than us, and focus on the here and now. On making the most of every moment, cause there's no magical redo button, is there? Just what we've got, right now.
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[That had been the hardest part of Saki-senpai's death, even though he'd only known her for a few days. The fact that they figured out why it happened, but they couldn't do anything about it...not for her.
In life, there are no redos. That particular pill is the most bitter one to swallow.]
But just because we're thinking about things like that...it doesn't mean we can't make the most of things, too. Isn't that what we're doing?
[Taking the chances while they can. It's why he's come to the relationships he has -- because he's realized that the missed chances were never worth saving himself from a little pain.]
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[ because there isn't a magic redo button... they have to do what they can, right now. he doesn't want to have any regrets. ]