[There's something so tender about that kind of closeness, the gentle weight of Yosuke's head on his shoulder, and he exhales, leaning into the gesture a bit. There are some ways in which Yu doesn't compromise, and maybe it's not fair to anyone that he wants to care about both of them, but-- he can't help it.
Yosuke Hanamura, his partner, his person. If he had to choose, it feels almost inevitable that he would choose him. All the same...he's glad he doesn't have to.]
... I would understand, though, [he says after a thoughtful moment.] If that was too much.
[he's out here doing too much. but it is Yu, after all. he's always wanted to make sure he's okay, and that he's taken care of, all things considered. even through all the dumb shit they get into... it's times like these that he knows he definitely picked the right partner.]
I told you before, I'm not going to hold you back. But if he hurts you again...
[It's a uniquely uncomfortable feeling, for Yu -- feeling like someone is taking care of him. Maybe because he was just...on his own so much. Countless nights coming home to a dark, empty house, having to look after his own needs. He had seen so much of himself in Nanako, in her independence, her resilience in the face of that empty home. The idea that someone wants to help, to be there, to care...it's hard. It's still really, really hard for him to accept that.
But he's trying. He squeezes Yosuke's hand; it's a gesture that means more than he's able to say in words, some mix of gratitude and understanding. He has no doubt that Yosuke will do whatever he can. It's just-- he doesn't want things to come to that.]
It won't happen again, [he says softly after a moment, swallowing uncomfortably. It's not out of faith in Mikey, but rather faith in himself.] I won't let it.
[Not just because he grows from his own mistakes, but also because he doesn't want to need to be looked after. Not again.]
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he's not actually all that surprised. it's Yu after all, and he's probably the best person he's ever met. would he be okay? no.
but he leans his head on Yu's shoulder anyway, his grip softening on the other's hand so it's not quite crushing.]
I'll be okay. [he might not be able to forgive Mikey yet, but:] It wouldn't be fair if I made your life hell because you want to fix things.
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Yosuke Hanamura, his partner, his person. If he had to choose, it feels almost inevitable that he would choose him. All the same...he's glad he doesn't have to.]
... I would understand, though, [he says after a thoughtful moment.] If that was too much.
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I told you before, I'm not going to hold you back. But if he hurts you again...
[the grip on his hand intensifies again.]
I will kill him.
[we went from 0 to 60 here, huh!!]
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But he's trying. He squeezes Yosuke's hand; it's a gesture that means more than he's able to say in words, some mix of gratitude and understanding. He has no doubt that Yosuke will do whatever he can. It's just-- he doesn't want things to come to that.]
It won't happen again, [he says softly after a moment, swallowing uncomfortably. It's not out of faith in Mikey, but rather faith in himself.] I won't let it.
[Not just because he grows from his own mistakes, but also because he doesn't want to need to be looked after. Not again.]