(he spoke so much, but what he has told yu right this moment doesn't even scratch the surface of what made him the way he is, but between what he just told yu right now, and what yu knows of him, he might be able to piece together what was left unsaid. shinichiro's legacy that mikey has always wanted to honor - but better, larger, bigger, a dream he couldn't help but yearn for as he watched his brother be so beloved when he lacked what manjiro had. the way his people looked at him with relief and admiration whenever he stepped forward in a fight. the way he managed to be everyone's ground, even when the one beneath him crumbled.
it's not an excuse, but he finds that this might explain something - it had never been a lack of faith in yu, or his friends, it had been manjiro's flaws from start to finish.)
i ain't graduated reading is for losers who cant motorbike
(an olive branch taken and responded in kind.)
i just internalized what she was saying all fucked, i guess, it's not on her. she was just in love. she loved him so much that years after he died, all she wanted was to be with him. she loved him just as much till the day she died. it was... actually pretty beautiful. i lived it again, i don't know if it made me better or worse.
(and that's where he got fucked up. the idea that being as strong and as incredible would make him just as loved.)
guess i have the same taste in men, so the apple doesn't fall too far from the tree. i never told you about her, but she'd adore you.
(but he has to step back from that text for a minute. it goes silent, because that's absolutely the opposite of what he feels. he feels at his weakest. he finds this whole thing as pathetic as he can go.
he doesn't get to have feelings about it. doesn't get to come to yu, of all people, with all of it. this is his mess. the break is massive, uncomfortable and a chilling silence from manjiro's side as he smokes far from his phone to process. a good 20 minutes pass before he texts back.)
i don't have answers either, and i'm don't know if i am glad i told you. i feel like throwing up big time. maybe another time ill feel differently.
(it's horrible - this feeling of being so damn weak, to show all the vulnerability that he has been hiding behind the easygoingness and smiles he has offered the other in the little opportunities that they have had since manjiro's come back.)
... i just... think you didn't sign up for this. you didn't know, but then again, i didn't, either. i even came to think - i'm the time-leaper now. but... do you regret us at all? would you change it?
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it's not an excuse, but he finds that this might explain something - it had never been a lack of faith in yu, or his friends, it had been manjiro's flaws from start to finish.)
i ain't graduated reading is for losers who cant motorbike
(an olive branch taken and responded in kind.)
i just internalized what she was saying all fucked, i guess, it's not on her. she was just in love. she loved him so much that years after he died, all she wanted was to be with him. she loved him just as much till the day she died. it was... actually pretty beautiful. i lived it again, i don't know if it made me better or worse.
(and that's where he got fucked up. the idea that being as strong and as incredible would make him just as loved.)
guess i have the same taste in men, so the apple doesn't fall too far from the tree. i never told you about her, but she'd adore you.
(but he has to step back from that text for a minute. it goes silent, because that's absolutely the opposite of what he feels. he feels at his weakest. he finds this whole thing as pathetic as he can go.
he doesn't get to have feelings about it. doesn't get to come to yu, of all people, with all of it. this is his mess. the break is massive, uncomfortable and a chilling silence from manjiro's side as he smokes far from his phone to process. a good 20 minutes pass before he texts back.)
i don't have answers either, and i'm don't know if i am glad i told you. i feel like throwing up big time. maybe another time ill feel differently.
(it's horrible - this feeling of being so damn weak, to show all the vulnerability that he has been hiding behind the easygoingness and smiles he has offered the other in the little opportunities that they have had since manjiro's come back.)
... i just... think you didn't sign up for this. you didn't know, but then again, i didn't, either. i even came to think - i'm the time-leaper now. but... do you regret us at all? would you change it?
... selfishly, i don't, and i wouldn't.